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I’ll not lie, this isn’t a happy entry. In fact it’s going to be incredibly hard to write, so I imagine it’ll be no picnic to read.
I don’t even know where or how to start. From keeping my head above water, I’m now swallowing more than a cleethorpes hen do. There’s more occasions where I’m thinking, oh I can see the light, but that’s only in relation to 90% of the time where I don’t.
What’s brought about the change? Well the anti depressants issue will be where people gleefully point and state as the cause, but popping a pill every day is no way to live, and frankly the side effects are probably the real reason why you forget about the mental illness.
However, there’s never one root cause, and I’m certainly not getting in to the causes on a blog, but like on other occasions, things pile up, until you find yourself struggling to hold up the walls of your life.
I have one thing coming up soon, which will give me a drive, direction and purpose. The direction I take in the future is very dependant on the outcome. I have a plan in place, but for now it’s about getting by.
The kids have harvest festival this afternoon, and I dearly want to be there to witness it, but equally I’m not impressed with God and religion at this moment in time, and yeah I know it’s the kids singing, but it’s hard to give praise to God, when God isn’t there for you.
A friend of mine messaged me the other day, now I only know Tina through twitter, @wunjot by the way, well worth a follow, but just a quick message like hers, checking in, will always brighten a day. Remember that the next time one of your friends or family looks like they’re struggling.
I’ll write soon.
Peace
I don’t even know where or how to start. From keeping my head above water, I’m now swallowing more than a cleethorpes hen do. There’s more occasions where I’m thinking, oh I can see the light, but that’s only in relation to 90% of the time where I don’t.
What’s brought about the change? Well the anti depressants issue will be where people gleefully point and state as the cause, but popping a pill every day is no way to live, and frankly the side effects are probably the real reason why you forget about the mental illness.
However, there’s never one root cause, and I’m certainly not getting in to the causes on a blog, but like on other occasions, things pile up, until you find yourself struggling to hold up the walls of your life.
I have one thing coming up soon, which will give me a drive, direction and purpose. The direction I take in the future is very dependant on the outcome. I have a plan in place, but for now it’s about getting by.
The kids have harvest festival this afternoon, and I dearly want to be there to witness it, but equally I’m not impressed with God and religion at this moment in time, and yeah I know it’s the kids singing, but it’s hard to give praise to God, when God isn’t there for you.
A friend of mine messaged me the other day, now I only know Tina through twitter, @wunjot by the way, well worth a follow, but just a quick message like hers, checking in, will always brighten a day. Remember that the next time one of your friends or family looks like they’re struggling.
I’ll write soon.
Peace
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