Bouncebackability
Been a while since my last blog, mainly coz I’ve been in such a good place. I’ve kept a firm hand on my BPD, and amid lockdown I’ve been supporting others because I’ve not had to worry about myself. I even reconciled with an old friend. Finding that strength, I had been putting myself out there again, and last Monday I had an interview for another job. Something out of my comfort zone, but equally something I believe I could do with my eyes closed. I believe I came across as happy, relaxed and experienced, and finished the interview having made the interviewers laugh. Brilliant, I thought. However, this is where BPD will inevitably kick in. After talking to my wife and explaining how well I thought I’d done, the thoughts began creeping into my head. “That was too quick, and too easy. You’ve fucked it up. Best accept you’ll be stuck doing this same shit for a while yet”. I would tell myself it doesn’t really matter, I’ve still got a well paid job no matter what. “Yeah but you wante...