World suicide prevention day 2020
Imagine this for a second. Your other half is playing in the summer sun with your toddler, you’re stood there watching them, not a care in the world. However, you’re stood there watching them with a handful of pills in your hand, because you can’t give them the love or care that they deserve. Thinking that despite the initial hurt, their life would be so much better without you. Is it hard to imagine? I live with those images every day. I can picture it as vividly as any day in my life. My wife never knew until I first spoke about my suicidal thoughts last year. I felt a sense of shame for thinking of it. Now imagine a few months later, as your second child is born, facing the fact that you cannot bond with them. Thinking that they’ll never like you. What sort of parent are you? It really got to me. I ended up writing my thoughts down, how I would be better off dead. Perhaps subconsciously I left it for my wife to find. Imagine the distress that caused. She could see I wasn’t cop...