Broken point
It's been a while since I last wrote a blog entry, and throughout that time I've contemplated writing plenty but not been able to find the words. I guess this is pretty much the story of my life. Wanting to talk but not knowing how to, or being scared of the outcome. Finding the words is half the battle when you don't even understand your feelings, how do you explain the loneliness and emptiness to others when you don't even want to contemplate those thoughts yourself. Just before Christmas this year I began to have thoughts that weren't entirely to my liking. I put it down to the usual feelings I get around that time. They'll pass. Christmas came around, the thoughts were getting worse. The nagging thought that something isn't right. I was deeply unhappy. It was only Christmas day afternoon that I found myself at peace. As a family we were all enjoying time together. The 27th I was back at work, this will help, I thought, the job keeps me busy and focus...